Is there a best friend in this world?

I'm still asking questions until now, whether in this world there is your best friend? until now I have not found a best friend, they always hurt me without them knowing it, what am I wrong? or is this all just mere memories? god if indeed at some time you gave your best friend for me, please .. give the best for me that mengertiku, who cared about me, what did I do not deserve to get it? I envied my friends who already can be best friends god, I'm jealous, maybe all of it your way but I beg you, before I die I can eventually find a best friend, god? I'm sad, I'm sick, I was injured, why why why? tears on my face, not one person who wishes to cure, god please grant me my prayer. :'(